I’m hurt,

He knows that.

But he pretend to be not,

And I knows that.

-Thasni Muhammadali




Is it pain?

I cannot recognize it.

It flows through my head,

Through my heart,

Through my veins,

Through my body.

What is it?

It brings me back to my past


Looking back through some pages,

I understood

I not complete some pages.

It is good that some stories do not last,

Some unfinished stories are beautiful.


The unfinished stories are flowing on this earth,

It’s like a soul that does not enjoy peaces,

Give me peace,they are crying…


I’m completely lost in another world,

When you looked into my eyes

My heart beat fasted,

When you stood next to me

My body was on fire,

When you touched my cheek

The soft touch from you,

Give me butterflies deep inside me

The exhausted feeling,

That make me feel alive

Feel alive…!!!


മഴക്കാലം പോലെ-

എന്നരികില് വന്നു നീ

മഴയായ് പെയ്യ്തു-

എന് മനം കവറ്ന്നു നീ

മഴയായ് പെയ്യ്തു-

കോരി പുണറ്ന്നു നീ

മഴയായ് പെയ്യ്തു-

കുളിരണിയിച്ചു നീ

മഴയായ് പെയ്യ്തു-

തീരാ ദു:ഖമായി കടന്നു പോയി നീ!


             Sometimes,someone comes into our life,so unexpectedly. Isn’t it? 

             On 2016 February 8,I received a friend request from my old classmate. I was sitting on my front porch. It was 5 pm I checked my phone. That time I saw a friend request notification on my phone. “Anup Disilva”. I smiled when I saw his name. “Anup Disilva”. Yes,I know him. He was my classmate. I accepted that request.

              That time I think about him. During our school days Anup and I never spoke a word to each other. His surname is pretty rare. I always remember his name. He was a silent boy (hm… 😂).

                After sometime I received a message from him.

                He:hi, how are u? Do you remember me?                                                                       I:yes,I do 😊. I’M good. U                               He:I’m good.                                                             I:what are you doing?                    ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….etc…

                 Then we talking to each other since February 8 last year. We know each other since 2007. But,we know each other deeply since last year. We instantly became best friends. I used to talk to him like he is the only one around (hahaha). We talking to each other about all the things that had happened,and daily events and activities,movies and televisions,families and relatives,and about friends,and all all things. He listen when I have a problem. I instantly smile when I see a text from him,I don’t even care what’s in it… smile when I see a call from him,missed call from him. Stupid girl 😛.

                   January. His birthday month. One month before I started preparing for happy birthday month. I was confused about what to gift to my friend on her birthday. There are lots of things. But I was confused. Finally,I decided. For his birthday,I create a 5 minute video for him. I asked him to send me photos of his. But that idiot 🙆. He didn’t give me anything. 😢. I’ve already some pictures of him. But,I checked his facebook account. And downloaded his pictures. 😃😃😃. It took me about some days to put it together. It was a fun for me and a meaningful and personalized gift for my special friend. And I painted a happy Birthday card for him.

                     On his birthday I called him,and I wished him,and I gifted these cutest gifts. 

                      He is an idiot,charming,lovely,beautiful,(at the same time hm… rough and tough) 😜.

                      He will go Canada to study soon. Anu,I wish you all the happiness in the world. Love you… 😘